Thursday, June 10

needing to sleep

it's been a while since i blogged -
don't worry, i haven't stopped being opinionated
or having musings about
life, love and other mysteries -
i've just been unable to find the time to put my
funny thoughts up for the world to see :}
...
tonight, tho,
im kinda pensive.
i can hear fire trucks outside my house
and i wonder whose home is on fire
or if someone is in danger.
i wonder if they'll be ok.
i heard the news that a girl was beaten and raped near our home.
a girl in our stake.
and i wonder how she'll survive.
how her family will survive.
i listened to a woman i know
prepare herself for another battle against cancer
after being a survivor of several years.
then she found out
that her husband is also fatally ill.
and i wonder if she's tempted to get angry or give up.
i see and hear lots of sad things
because the world is full of unhappy, wounded and flawed people,
and honestly, sometimes i don't know where to put it.
this life
this earth
this chance
is a divine and priceless gift -
greater than anything else we could have had in the eternities -
we fought for it!
we wanted it!
because somehow, we trusted,
even before we'd come here,
that everything we'd face;
all darkness
injustice
unkindness
perversion
wickedness
lonliness
scarring
and
pain
would all somehow be swallowed up
and healed
through the Savior.
we didn't just trust, we KNEW.
my heart aches for the people around me who have been hurt.
my heart aches when i hear about how dark the world is becoming.
my heart aches when i think of little children having to brave this dangerous place.
but somehow, the world still isn't evil.
the world, this earth and the people on it,
are still all creations of God
and He is still the supreme ruler over them.
so this world, despite all of its flaws,
is still glorious beyond description!
and so, somehow, we can still be joyful
despite how scary life can seem.
:)
there is nothing
NOTHING
the Savior cannot make right
through the Atonement.
and there is so much RIGHT that can already be had in this life!
and the Atonement
magnifies it to be so much more right
and good
and bright
than it was before!
“[His influence] quickens all the intellectual faculties, increases, enlarges, expands and purifies all the natural passions and affections; and adapts them, by the gift of wisdom, to their lawful use. It inspires, develops, cultivates and matures all the fine-toned sympathies, joys, tastes, kindred feelings and affections of our nature."
-Parley P Pratt
i love that quote.
our great and loving Father
through our Savior
aided by the Holy Ghost
make all wrongs right
all rights divine
and give ALL experiences meaning.
...im not sure if i make much sense :}
its late.
God is love
goodnight.

2 comments:

Ross & Amanda Goodman- but mostly Amanda :) said...

Oh Emily. We are in synch. Ross and I were just discussing this last night. The darkness. The fear. The pain. The downright badness of things, and how we are supposed to navigate our sweet children through it all unscathed. We can't. We aren't supposed to. We are supposed to teach them and love them and help them cope with that badness so that they can appreciate all the wonderful goodness that is also out there. Anyway- sorry for the long comment. I think you are amazing, and I loved the hope from you that shone through this post. I love you!

shellangel said...

Em, I hope you are writing a song about this. I would love to hear it. Thank you for blogging. I love what you write!